So… it always seems that as I am thinking through something in particular, the Lord brings so much more to mind. I’m in the process of thinking through repentance and what true repentance looks like, and it seems that the Lord is constantly showing me areas in my life that I need to repent of. I like how He gives me opportunities to put into practice what I’m thinking about.
For instance, I was talking with a brother the other day about eldership. He went into how one big thing about being an elder is the fact that the elder is an example to the rest of the body, Philippians 3:17 for example, as to what it should look like to follow Christ. He mentioned that I should look at those in the church who set those kinds of examples in many areas in their lives such as serving others.
As I reflect upon that, the Lord is really showing me how selfish I am with my time. I want to do things on my schedule, when they are convinient for me. This is only one area of sin out of many that the Lord is showing me. Lord, I want to repent and turn from this sin, but I know that I can’t do it in my own strength. I desprately need You and Your grace that I might become a servant to others.